My Fascination

As every other human being on this earth, I have my own fascinations for a lot of things. But today, in this post, I would be speaking only about one of those. Right now, I’m elated as I can see it happening. And I thought I’ll put it down in my blog.
And here it goes – My fascination for The First Pay…

No matter how much ever you succeed in boosting your gross, it’s always the first remuneration that gives you extreme happiness. I call it the ecstasy… The touch of each penny you have earned bestows you with the sensation of having accomplished the pinnacle of your life. You feel it deep in your heart. Your heart resonating the hymn that verbalizes your definition and the conduit of success, glorifying you. You hear nothing, perceive nothing - your heart fastened with wings, all set high, to enjoy, to take delight of your hard work. It recollects how you spent each moment working for what you possess today, reminiscing the strenuous epoch you underwent, scuffling hard. And then befalls your tears… Which again speaks about the euphoria coalesced with contentment. Slowly, at a snail’s pace, your smile transpires… Wow!! It’s really a wonderful moment. All this, if you can pay attention to your silent inner heart and heed your ears to it, shutting down your surrounding, muting your heart that resides outside your subconscious, calling for jamboree.

I suppose that there can be only three possibilities if people haven’t experienced such a profound emotion. One probability is that they are persons who are exceptionally in an equilibrium state and their pointer always points to a single point on the emotion scale. Another likelihood is that their excitement wouldn have permitted them to hear their heart’s words. And finally, people who really don’t deserve their pay cannot sense this emotion. This populace would have dumped their work on a host, forbidding all labor that demanded hard work, spending their time at the workplace in a leisurely comportment – the most undeserving set.

Though I had this fascination, right from my childhood, I never thought of writing it down. The actuator behind this post... It’s Google. Yeah… Google had has approved my adsense account. It’s been a dream of mine (Hey, that’s a minuscule one – to be a part of Google’s ad sense subscriber). Had no idea of how or where to begin with. Even tried my hands on website construction. Didn work out well. Couldn make even a wild guess on what the content of my site would be. Dropped it. I had been a blogger member for quite sometime with a different login name the password of which, is not in my memory. It’s jus a few days back that I’ve started with this blog and my adsense account approved. I know there’s a long way to go to get my bucks… I don mind about it. But I’ve initiated. That counts for me.

And for people out there who think I've been crazy enough to dream of this big picture, before it could really work out, here's what I say (Psss It's Kalam's words. I agree. Don throw tomatoes)...

"Great dreams of great dreamers are always transcended"

"You have to dream before your dream comes true"

When someone loves you

When you know someone loves you,
Someone lives for you, Someone needs you,
Someone holds you closer to their heart,
Someone finds living without you baffling,
You need to look back at them and
Reciprocate their feelings for you..
Coz, you don know, when the someone
Who lived for you might be gone..
It's tough to realise that the someone
Who could comfort you now,
When you are in need of them, is no more beside you,









Admiring your expressions,
Revering your beauty,
Adoring your smile,
Glorifying your rejoinders,
Idolising your presence
In their crippled heart
That longs for you
Without your knowledge
Anticipating nothing from you
But a little care,
A little of your opulent love,
A drop of your expensive tears
From your tender, gorgeous eyes
Through your beautiful heart
Which is cherised by the someone
As a heavenly endowment
The worth of which is unknown to you....

P.S. This someone may not be your the then sweetheart.. The person may be your friend who adores you.. Who jus longs for your friendship.. A concrete relationship..

Some of the phrases may sound similar to my heart throb - Enrique's "Somebody".. But that's my own resource.. No reproduction..

LIFE

LIFE - A four letter word with a lot of meaning in it. But it's not easily given to you, unless you try hard to explore it deeply within yourself. This demands a great deal of zeal. It's a treasure, an invaluable asset, only for people who understand it's purpose. And for people who fail to unearth this mighty gift, considering it just as a source for survival, it's always latent.

People who have gained this knowledge wouldn sit idle anymore. No, not even in their dreams
B'coz they know why they are here
Coz they know what they are to do
Coz they have to want to,.. or say, want to have it done

Their subconscious would be channeling them towards the crux of their aspiration, forbidding them from deviating… Heaving them back, each time the conscious mind lets them fly high, moving away from their ambition. It keeps them rooted. When you discover yourself and decide on what you really want to gain from this world and give to this world, you are no more a nuisance… No more a burden to this earth.

Discover what you need and you are in love… Yes, it’s like a love feeling, where can think about nothing but your love. Wherever you begin with, whatever you embark on, you end up thinking about your sweetheart. It’s just the same here. Your objective becomes your love. No fleeing… It’s not easy for this to happen. Coz you need an in depth analysis of yourself – exploring your inner self. Believe me, it’s not a painless progression.

Incipiently, you may not get… why ‘may not’, could say, ‘you will not’ be able to educe any elicitations, … You fail, suffer defeat, collapse incessantly. Many people give up here. It’s only those who persist despite this ignominious debacle get a glimpse of the conundrum,... the enigma of life. If you have reached this point, dont be broken. It seems you do not comprehend coz you get only a vague notion, an ambigous outline. You jus wanna say, I quit. Never do that. You are on your way in exploring the most invaluable possession - your life, the purpose of your life and this is your first stride. Once crossed, you are on an elavator. Yeah, here's where you get a coarse delination of the intention of your life. You begin asking questions like

Why am I here?
Why should I live?
Am I worth living?
What should I do here, on this earth?
For whom should I do?
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A series of unalleviating, eloquent queries which are unfalteringly interconnected.

When you find answers to these, you would no more be reading my blog.. Coz, you are on your path, exploring your new wonderful self !!! ..